Final Notifications of Baby B’s Death
Late last week, I received a letter from the company that conducted pre-implantation genetic diagnosis (PGD) of my eggs and my husband’s and my embryos during our two in vitro fertilization (IVF)...
View ArticleWords of Wisdom: Never Comment on a Pregnant Woman’s—or Any Woman’s—Largesse
One of life’s cruelties is that the medications the majority of infertile women take in their attempts to conceive make them look pregnant, regardless of whether they become so. I am not a petite...
View ArticleEnough with the “Fat Talk”
I haven’t written a blog post for three days, three days devoted to finishing a 34-page photo book, the fundraiser for my son’s preschool class, by PhotoWorks’ 25-percent off deadline last night. Now...
View ArticleAccess to Private Parts
When my son was 3½, he went to a local summer camp a few mornings a week, which precipitated the talk about “private parts.” The camp included indoor and outdoor play, the latter of which featured...
View ArticleMy 5-Year-Old Son, My Reminder of the Big Picture
Tomorrow, I will be 31 weeks pregnant, and, as of yesterday, I am up 56 ½ pounds. I’ve been on bed rest—first full and now partial—for the past five weeks, and now that I am getting out occasionally,...
View ArticleMedical Insurance Hell
I regularly check my family’s Aetna medical insurance online account to match claims with the corresponding invoices to ensure accuracy. In November, I saw several claims for my husband, for medical...
View ArticleBlessed by Sweet, Supportive Friends
In the past week, three of my friends have dropped off newborn baby clothes, sleep sacs, blankets, bibs and other necessities. I’ve gone from having just a few baby items, since I gave away almost all...
View Article33 Weeks Pregnant and Ultra-Emotional
I am not a crier, but yesterday I bawled—twice. I recognize that I am hormonal and exhausted, but I shocked myself at my reactions to, first, seeing triplets and, second, hearing that my friend is...
View ArticleMultiples Invading My Subconscious Mind
Last Monday, I wrote a post about becoming emotional after seeing triplets at a birthday party, then later learning that my friend is pregnant with twin boys, just as I had been six months ago—before...
View ArticleAnother Bleed, Another Hospitalization, But I’m at 36½ Weeks
A week and a half ago, on St. Patrick’s Day morning, my placenta started bleeding again. I was stunned, for it had been nine weeks, to the day, since my beginning of prior bleeding episode. At 34½...
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